Stand Alone (Nathan's Story Part II)

Once upon a time there was a peasant named Nathan....blah blah blah, if you guys don't know the beginning story I refer you to http://nathanshaveninvasion.blogspot.com/2013/05/nathans-story.html.

Anyway so Nathan and the Queen are still having some problems. Mainly that Nathan was formerly a girl and most of the towns folk don't like it, or at least they don't acknowledge it. You see Nathan was forced to put it on a rock similar to the stele "finger" of Hammurabi's Code, so that all the towns folk could see it. Nathan was forced to do it because it seemed as though nobody was really getting that he was different, even though he tried really hard to make it very plain, and obvious. However the Queen didn't really like that at all. She thought that the towns folk needed an apologize and an immediate retraction of the statement until Nathan could formally tell the towns folk of his decisions. Now Nathan thought it was a idiotic idea since all he really did was put his true self on the line, so all the confusion would be cleared up, and he didn't have to pretend anymore. Nathan really wanted to know that, although he had announced his alternate persona to everybody, most people still ignored his seemingly simple request, or even worse, refused to acknowledge him at all. The Queen pointed out that because Nathan was living with the King, that the towns folk didn't, and wouldn't respect his choice because he didn't have private conversations with anybody. Nathan thought that the Queen was being unreasonable because if the towns folk hadn't caught on by then, than shouldn't they just take the news in stride and not continue to knock Nathan down. The Queen also pointed out that Nathan needed his family to support him, and if they didn't accept his choice, then he would just have to suck it up and deal. Now Nathan had always been one for fairness and acceptance, but the Queen was not like that. Nathan, up until a few months ago, when the witch doctors noticed that he wasn't okay, had always stood alone (save for a few people here and there, particularly Sir. Alex Solla and his clan of Wonderful People, along with Robin McColley and The Seido Karate Clan.) But for the Queen to try to say that she had his back really irked Nathan because that was far from true. You see when the towns folk would talk smack about Nathan, the Queen wouldn't respond. But when people talked smack about anybody (including  the Queen and the Dragon) he would climb down their throat. To Nathan family went like this "I can talk smack about you, but nobody else can." Because family is supposed to have your back right? Well Nathan thought that was true and still sort of does. But still Nathan stands alone, and when someone knocks him down he will pick himself back up, Nathan is no longer a quitter. And now until forever, Nathan will stand up for what is right.  

Trans Versus Lesbian

Hey guys so this is just my take on how to tell the difference between being a lesbian and identifying as trans. People ask me a lot, how did I know, or they tell me their story about how they like girls and how they like to dress in "male" clothes, but they don't quite feel like a man. So they will ask if I think transition is right for them. And every time I get that question I sit there and think how the hell should I know if transition is right for you?

First of, I don't know that transition is right for anybody. I can't determine that, that isn't something I can determine now or ever. I suggest that you go to therapy to help get that outside perspective, and to have someone you can open up to without the fear of friends or family finding out anything.


But I think the main focus here is that you can be a girl and wear male clothes. You can wear boxers and want to look muscular and like girls and all that, without being trans. I mean I understand that when you play with that gender line, you may wonder what you are. You might think well maybe I'm a lesbian or maybe I am trans. I get that you kind of battle that in between, but I don't think that just because you're a female who likes females and dresses like a guy that you are absolutely transgender. I feel like a lot of people are crossing that line super quick I mean they see trans guys out there and they think immediately oh well I fit that criteria so I must be trans too. I don't know that it takes years to recognize that you're the opposite gender on the inside, but I do think it takes a fair amount of time to establish that it is the way you want to live.

So how do I know that you're trans? Well I don't. But if you can get up everyday knowing that you're a lesbian and that you dress like a guy, and you're okay with that, then maybe transitions not right for you. But if you're getting up and are upset about how your clothes fit or how you look, when you want to fit in with the opposite gender, and not because of your sexual orientation but because of how you actually feel inside.

Honestly you don't have to make a choice right away, just because testosterone and estrogen are available to you, you shouldn't just say "oh alright I'll get that" I do not suggest starting T until you wake up every single day and feel like a man. And you don't flip flop between genders. Especially because if you change your mind, you're are screwed if you have already started T.

Its really okay to ride the gender line, it truly is.